My first morning on the elliptical--my legs feels like weak rubber bands, My heart is beating fast and I'm breathing deeper and harder than I have in a long time. The sad thing is this: I was only on it for one minute and thirty seconds.
Oh, well. You gotta start somewhere and this just shows how much I needed it. I actually remember telling myself--just a few more seconds as I tried to hit the 30 second mark. Pitiful. Now...what's for breakfast?
How can a minute and thirty seconds feel like such a long time? The front of my legs are burning all the way up to my thighs. I know it's a good workout for my arms too. When I first start working out on it, I feel like I'm gliding and I wonder if that's a little what it feels like to ski.
My Vcigs came today too and I'm going to be vaping (a practice that looks like smoking but is not. It produces a water vapor instead of smoke and you can buy Vcigs in different flavors and they don't have to taste like a cigarette at all.) In an effort to cut down on sweets and in between meal eating and after meal eating and binge eating and...well, you get the drift, I thought of using Vcigs because I remember how cigarettes used to end a meal for me. But these Vcigs. don't contain any nicotine or any of the harmful things that cigarettes do. (You can get them with nicotine if you want but I just want to vape a flavor. An air mist comes out instead of smoke and the Vcig doesn't even get hot. It can't burn you and they're a lot cheaper than cigarettes. In fact, if I quit buying snacks and sweets, they will pay for themselves. The only thing about them that bothers me is that people who don't know might think I'm really smoking. I don't want it to be a bad witness of my Christian walk. I've had some negative reactions from people too who seem to use this to prove to themselves that I'm a hypocrite. (Have you ever noticed that those who are the quickest to quote random Bible verses they take out of context like: "Judge not," and "He who throws the first stone...," are also the quickest to judge a Christian harshly?)
The Bible says not to let your good be evil spoken of but some people choose to think evil anyway. However, I don't want to be a bad influence on anyone so I'll try not to do much vaping out in public.
I've made it through the day without any after meal snacks and I enjoyed vaping. I've got a vanilla Vcig. (or Ecig) and I find that it does satisfy me. If they help me lose weight and get back in shape, they will be well worth it.
I did another one and half min on the elliptical this afternoon. I took it slower and it didn't wear me out so much. I hope my elliptical journey takes me to a place where I will feel better and be able to get around better. Yes, I want to look nice in my clothes but I'm fifty-six years old and the looks thing just doesn't matter as much to me as it used to. Not that I don't care about my appearance but I think I've got a better perspective on it than I used to. I've seen some people who are so appearance driven, they are manic about what they eat. I guess you can take anything out of context, even your life.